many faces of mateen @ 5 months old

Things are getting better now.. no more heavy rains, just cloudy with a little touch of sunshine..:)
Been posting too many sappy sad songs.. let's change the mood & post Mateen's latest photos @ 5 months old..















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Mateen now has 2 room mates at his taska.
Mia Zahra & Damia. Baby Mia, 3 months & Kakak Mia, 1 year.
Mateen is still the only baby boy..he likes all the attention.. ;)

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I was stuck in a massive jam earlier. It rained so bad, I was on the road for 1 hour. Lucky thing I managed to reach the taska by 6.30pm.. or else, late penalty charges applies.

Anyways, in the car, the DJ started to play some catchy tunes, the songs that kinna reminds me of the good ol' gym days.. At that moment, I really missed my gym days.. the Body Pump, Body Combat, Step classes.. Love the sweat & collaborative workout..

Fast forward to now, I can't seem to find time to workout.Weekdays are out, cause I have to rush & pick up Mateen before 6.30pm, unless I don't mind paying an extra RM 5 daily. sheeshh. Then Weekends are the times we have plans, or it's our cleaning day, or laundry day, or groceries day, or my cooking day..

So how? susahnya nak excercise..

But suprisingly just now, I was in the mood to try out my wedding bajus... Both my baju nikah & my baju bertandang FITS! Which means, I have gone back to my pre-pregnancy body! Biar betul? hehe..alhamdulillah.. But I know, still got some flabs to work on..

Wanna go for those aerobic classes.. :(

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Am starting to love tweeting.. it's fun, especially when you are free or bored.
Wanna BB Bold...quick!

Fix You

Chris Medina sang an emotional performance of Cold Play’s fix you, but somehow he was not selected to the Top 24. Several years ago during Australian Idol’s finale song, all the Top 12 contestants sang this song in the premises of the Sydney Opera house. This is a deep strong powerful song, and is one of my favorite song, especially for now.. ;)


*Fix You*

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face

And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you

thank you love

Ever since the preview show during one of the awards show, I really wanted to watch Terima Kasih Cinta. Then, the recent reviews of the shows were fantastic, makes me wanna go even more..

I really wanna watch the show.. :(

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It is true when you're at the midst of a life obstacle, that is when Allah loves you and wants to test you. Sometimes in this midst of mess, we will be closer to Him, and that is when you need to believe that there is reasons for things to happen.

And now, I need to be the pillar of strength.. I hope I have the will power to sustain it..

"Ini semua ujian..Tuhan nak menduga.."

Ya Allah, Let me be strong.. please don't drag this.. this shall pass...Insyallah...

Rock Fool

Rocks.Rocky.Rocking.On the rocks.Rock & Roll.Rock!

I wanna be Rocky.. in time..

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"Foolish Games" by Jewel

You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.
And I watched from my window,
Always felt I was outside looking in on you.
You're always the mysterious one with
Dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive
But too cool to care.
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather.

Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees, and...

These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.

You're always brilliant in the morning,
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.
Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar.

Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself.

These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.

You took your coat off,
Stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.

when love + hate collide

My all time favourite power ballad by Def Lepard..

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand baby, united we fall

Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this flame
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time

Without you
One night alone Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby, like an act of war
I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes

There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby...Crazy...Crazy

Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
If you have a heart at all
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

maulidurrasul 2011

I am feeling super down today. The past week has been a roller coaster drama.. and it has still not ended. All I did seemed wrong and unappreciated. Sighh.. I can only seek from God for guidance and patience..

Today's a public holiday,and I have no plans at all.. everyone is superbusy with their own thing, so need to plan something just for the two for us, Mateen & I.

Maulidur Rasul 2009, I got engaged. Maulidur Rasul 2010, I was officially pregnant (confirmed positive on the pregnancy test). Maulidur Rasul 2011..I need to do something memorable.

Okay, once Mateen is up, will bath him.. and we shall go for an adventure.. :)

Btw, Mateen is 5 months old today, and weighs 7.1kg + 67 cm tall.. His 5th month jab was a breeze for him.. that's my boy! :)

shoo away...

I have yet to upload the KB trip photos. Don't seem to find time. This weekend hopefully.

There has been a couple of things happened this week. Something that I have no control of and has affected me rather badly. I usually don't believe in such things, but when it happens right smack on your face, things started to "make sense", and you have to accept it anyway.All I can say is, I believe in karma..God is great, there will be payback one day..

Hey cruella.. you have nothing better to do is it? Go far2 away and do not disturb my family.. Hate.You.VooDoo.

Anyways, in exactly one month's time, I will start my new job. Looking forward to that.

Okay, better hit the showers and pick my little munckin up from the daycare. Have a good weekend folks..

adik mateen..

No, I am NOT pregnant peps.. so don't worry. I just got to thinking about Mateen's future adik nanti Insyallah..

Some ppl has made statements like..
"With your easy pregnancy & delivery, you should have like 10 children.."
" If all your children behave as well as Mateen, then you should have more children.."

Okay, I admit, I am blessed for the pregnancy, delivery and for my first born, but it might not be the same the second time round. I mean, of course I pray (very hard) that it will be, but God decides right?

One thing for sure, what I really really want for the 2nd child is for him/her to be exclusively breast fed. I am (still)very sad that I am not able to do so for Mateen, and now he has weaned off completely. I read blogs of mothers who is able to be a working mom & yet breast feed their child.. I am so envious of them. I mean, yeah.. rezeki masing2.. but I really hope I am able to do so for the 2nd one Insyallah. Mr Bert & I has agreed to have the 2nd one once Mateen is in school, so there's still 3 years in planning..

The most essential thing is, I need to have the right breast pump (I am eyeing for the double pump..), the right supplements, and of course, the right support & mind set as well.

"Ya Allah, please (when the time is right), let my second pregnancy be smooth, let my delivery be easy, let my child be good and give him/her the benefit of having breast milk exclusively for 2 years.."

Hah..that's a lot to ask.. no harm to berdoa right? But for now, Mateen, you are the light of my life.. :)

ps: I am thinking "Pumpkin" is a good nickname for the 2nd one, yah? tee hee..

blogging from kota bahru..

Mr Bert actually brought the p1 modem so that he (or we) can surf online daily. My SIL & BIL take turns with our laptops too, save them the trip to the c.c.



Now am chilling in Mr Bert's room while watching Bulletin Utama, Mateen joins in as well. He's wearing the Tigger outfit that was bought for Danya's birthday party, he looks too cute! Earlier the whole family ate my MIL's kuzi ayam + roti jala.. sedaaappp.... Been eating lotsa good food here.. need to diet when back in KL..



Mateen has met most of the relatives here.. the Tuks, the uncles, aunties, and his cousins.. he will stare to those who "kecek kelantan" to him. Although I may not be able to speak kelantanese, but I do wish he will be able to master the dialect when he's older. Most ppl said he looks a lot like me, or a good mix of the both of us, and that he looks like my FIL. And all said that he is "tubuh", which means chubby in kelantanese.. hehe.. and yes, they praise that he is such a "good" boy.. alhamdulillah..

Didn't do much shopping, as this trip is mainly for Mateen to meet up with Mr Bert's relatives.
The next trip will be in 6 months time, during raya.. will need to save up by then..

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Managed to find the guts to discuss, alhamdulillah everything went well. The main thing now is that it is my call. Like it or not, I have to take initiative and play my part well. I just need to accept that fact, cause it won't change (for now). As long there is no rejections, I am fine with it.. Let's put (my) pride aside, and stay focus on making this work..

In a way, I am glad and happy. Been having lotsa ideas already.. :)