Greetings 2012

It is past midnite of 2012.

The year 2011 has been the toughest + most challenging year I've encountered. God has became the One whom I confide things, my saddness, my tears. My greatest memories of 2011 is seeing mateen growing from a chubby baby into a curious little toddler.

I pray that this year will be much kinder to me. I hope I am able to be a better mom to mateen + a better wife to mr bert, insyallah..

Ya Allah, please give me strength, patience, and happiness for the year. Amin...


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The song that suits my situation...

Ombak Rindu..

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hanya mampu terserah
Moga cahaya di penanti

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

hello there..blog!

It's been awhile..I know.
Life has been so hectic, one can only imagine. With my new school just opened the past 2 months, there were several days I was on a 7am-7pm shift. Now, things are starting to get adjusted,but still quite hectic. By the time I get home, I am in my mommy mode of looking after mateen & doing house chores. Thus, spare time for blogging is totally out of the picture! But I do miss blogging. Sigh..

A lot has happend of course.. Mateen being admitted in the hospital due to food poisoning on my birthday, celebrating Mateen's first raya, first Birthday party and 2nd Deepavali.. I wish time is on my side to update the meaningful events. Well, God knows when my next spare time will be. Here are some of the pics taken during those events.

Also, Salam Aidiladha. I will be my (and mateen's) celebrating raya haji in KB. Have a great one peps!

RIP Hian Kwang

Last Monday, I got a shocking news from Chia Yee about the loss of my dear high-school friend, Hian Kwang. He was only 28 years old.

He has been suffering from a brain tumor since last year. Ironically, he was at the midst of becoming a neurosurgeon. I remembered signing a "Get well soon" card for him during Mateen's aqiqah, and upon receiving he gave an email saying "Thank you Helena & Mateen".

I've known in way back in 1996, during my PBSM days. We got closer in 1997, becoming really active members, and in 1998, we were both elected in the committee, me as vice & him as president. Over the years until 2000, we both worked our sweat off for the unit, PBSM SL(Y)180. The ups, the downs, the dramas.. we completed most of our courses and even got the opportunity to go to Japan for exchanged program. For me, he was not only a good leader, but a good friend indeed. We too share our love for music (he's good in guitar & drums), and of course, hanging out at one utama was a usual thing back in those days.

Fast forward post high school, we didn't see each other at all. I knew he was in NZ, and he knew I was in Aussie. It wasn't until in 2007, when he was back in KL for a short trip that him, yit hui & I decided to meet up at Ismail Mamak, TTDI.I remembered clearly he wanted me & yit to visit him in NZ, and he wanted to bring us in his plane (he's learnt how to fly too). The three of us also talked about the good ol' high school memories, and how our lives have changed. Little did I know that was my last time meeting him.

Hian Kwang, you are one unique individual who has lived your life to the fullest. May you rest in peace, and you are now free to 'fly' in the heavens above. You are deeply missed. Take care my friend..May God Bless.. Your memories & friendship will be cherished.

RIP Yeoh Hian Kwang
28 November 1982- 21 August 2011

my fellow teachers

This is my first time blogging from my phone.. lets see how it goes..

Today was an interesting day. The morning started off with the big boss giving prep talk to the infant teachers. I arrive slightly late than her, I felt the guilt of not arriving on time.

Halfway thru her talk- she made announcement bout the change.. I am appointed as the new infant principal. and the response? The teachers were delighted and even gave an applause.. I was so overwhealmed.. :-)

After her talk and assigning the teachers their duties..I headed off to meet the toddler n kindi teachers who are getting their new letter offer, with positions of lead teacher, class teacher & assistant teachers with their new salary & allocated shifts.

Overall, most of them were happy with their LOs. The lead teachers were very satisfied with their new pay. One class teacher was very happy, especially when the new salary will be in on his birthday. It was a great feeling looking at their happy reactions & smiling faces.

iiBut..one particular teacher didn't get the class teacher position due to the full quota. He's a good teacher, but I just couldn't give him that post. And he as really upset...

I felt terrible after he left the room. I then begin 2 realized, although majority are satisfied, but you can't never please everyone.

Somehow, luck was on his side, the management gave him that position. Fyuhh,what a relief!

So today, I've learnt a lot from my teachers. Tmrw will be the infant teachers' turn 2 get their new LOs. Hope all will be satisfied...Insyallah..

Someday Doctor

I'm about to lose my mind
you've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life..

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Wife: How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables

Husband: I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late

God: Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

God:Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
Husband/Wife: (You're the only one who knows that)
God: Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when

Wife: Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Husband: Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

God: Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

God: Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
Husband/wife: (You're the only one who knows that)
God: Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when....

a wonderful surprise

Last Sunday, I was doing my usual grocery shopping at Tesco, then I saw the sign.

"Spend more than RM 50 in Tesco and your child gets free photo shoot for the 'Si Comel Bayi' Competition".

I saw the mini booth that the organizer has set up, and I saw the cute little costumes for the kids to wear. So, I went back home, took Mateen & off we went for his first photo shoot!

I had to choose between a cow, a bee, or a cowboy for his size. I choose Mr Cowboy of course..


Love to his that little tooth of his! It's his first & only tooth so far.

I got this picture in A4 size being framed + 2 3R size photos. I didn't get the CD or album cause it was quite costly.

It doesn't matter if Mateen doesn't win this.. the fact he has a cute photo session truly makes my day! :)

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This week was been filled with full of surprises..
For the first time, I got 2 birthday gifts...2 months in advance!

First, Kak Long bought me an Intimately Beckhams perfume, Night version. I did asked her to buy for me during her holiday in Aussie, but I thought I would pay back. Instead, she bought for me as a birthday gift instead. *Yeay!*

Another surprise came from Mr Bert himself. He told me that he's gonna get me a Smartphone, and I was shocked! I didn't expect him to buy me want,although it was a wish list item. He's reasoning was, he got a good bonus, so he has always wanted to get me one plus he knows how much I really really want it. Plus, so happen that my current hp has been going quite 'cuckoo' lately.. I could send smses, but couldn't received any msg. Msgs come the next day instead. And when I checked , its not the sim card, it's the phone.

So, because of that, I receieved my *wish list* present today!

And now, I got 2 advance birthday pressies from 2 special people...I am ecstatic! :)

Now I can tweet & smell good... anytime, anywhere.. hehehe...

View from the top

"They take pictures of mountain climbers at the top of the mountain..

They're smiling ,ecstatic, triumph..

They don't take pictures along the way..

'cause who wants to remember the rest of it?

We push ourselves cause we want to,

Not because we like it..




The climb,

The pain and anguish to take it to the next level..

Nobody takes pictures of that..

Nobody wants to remember..





We just want to remember the view from the top..

The breath-taking moment at the edge of the world..

That's what keeps us climbing..

...and it's worth the pain..

that's the crazy part..it's worth anything.."


-Dr M. Grey, Season 6 (Episode 17:Push, Disc 5)

9 months already..

Mateen had his first swim @ Subang Golf Club today. He was in the 'float' that I bought from Penang, but he lean to the front too much, so it was an awkward position. So, Mr Bert let him off the float, and he enjoyed it! We even brought his rubber ducky for company, but he enjoyed being with his daddy, and he turns 9 months today.. :)

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I waited to watch the DVDs together, so that we can spend time together, but no, you went ahead & watch it first.
I had to wait and do chores alone, while waiting for you to come back from having leisure time.
I have to wait to do my facial for months now, and still have not make appointment.
I have waited for a year, and still not getting anything.

Maybe I just don't deserve it.. sigh..

*It's the emo speaking, just letting it out..*