zaf is here..

Zaf is here! *YEAY*
Yesterday we walked around Rundle Mall + Torrens River.
Took heaps of pictures..
We took pics at the usual spots in Adelaide..
There's the smiling pictures, the jumping pictures, the shadow pictures..
Picture frenzy with zaf as always! hehe..


Anyways, today + tomorrow, I think I will be busy bringing zaf around.
Then,soon I will be home!
So, don't think I will be updating my blog anytime soon. We'll see.


It's the end of 2006 (already?).
For me, 2006 has more downs than ups for me.
More tears than smiles.
People come, several go.
Lots of lessons to be learn for sure.
Life goes on, as the saying goes.


What's up with 2007 for me?
Insyallah, it will be the starting of my career.
That's my main focus now..
It's all about the money..My very own income!! Insyallah..
The rest, oh well..lets hope for the better too.
Perhaps new friends, new time management, new hobby, new style, new adventures, new life.
The best is yet to come, right?
Hopefully there will be more ups than downs, insyallah..
God, please let me be strong facing life's obstacles. Amin..


So peps, wishing everybody a Happy New Year 2007!
Cheers to a great start of the year! =)
Farewell 2006. May you rest in peace..

mizachat

Last night, I had a great time chatting with Miza in my room.
We talked and talked and talked...until almost 3.30am!
We discussed about lots of issues..life mainly..
And, it felt good..to let it pour out, especially to someone who understands what we are facing through.
We are both are kinna in the same boat, but in different situations.
And guess what..I think I have found my answer, and I feel WAAYY much better now!
Now I can move on with my life peacefully..*Yeay!*
Thanx misz! You da bomb!!
Shall cherish this special moment of ours.. ;)




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I'm addicted to this song by Alex Band..
I have been listening to it over + over + over + over+ over again + over again+ over again...


Take hold of me- Alex Band


Never been more alone
I'm sinking like a stone
Seems everything I knew
No longer gets me through this madness
I can't take it now


Everything I planned
Has crumbled into sand and
Slipped into the sea
Won't someone please save me from this pain
Cause I'm going insane


CHORUS:
So take hold of me
Just take hold of me
Yeah take hold of me
And never let me go


Don't let me go


The people I leaned on
One blink and they are gone
And so I turn to You
To pull my lost soul out of this flood
I'm dying for love


CHORUS


Can you see me?
Find me
Free me


Just take hold of me
Yeah take hold of me
Oh well take hold of me
I've got nowhere left to go


CHORUS


I'll be all right
I'll be all right

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Another sweet song by Alex Band is "Hold on to you", written for his wife..


Alex shared this sweet story about how the song came to be. "After a year of dating in 2001, a few days before I played on TRL and did Regis for the first time, I broke up with Jennifer, cause it was just too damn hard to do my job and have a girlfriend. I was a mess and I regretted it like crazy for weeks afterwards, cause I knew she was the one for me...so I won her back by writing this song, flying to Florida, finding her and performing it for her in the middle of some mini mall, and telling her I loved her for the first time. Yah, it worked;)"

Awww...so sweet right? I wish somebody can write a song for me.. *wishful thinking*


Hold on to you- Alex Band

You walked into my world
A beautiful girl
Lost in a movie
And though we're light-years apart
I've stolen your heart
Left you on empty
And I know that this isn’t fair
But in all the craziness
I need you there


Chorus
I'm gonna hold on to you
I'm gonna stay strong for you
And if everyone fades away
I'll still be there for you


Naked under the sky
It's a blue moon night
We sink with the ocean
Crashes up at our feet
So sticky and sweet
Never felt more like children
In my mind I'm trying to find sanity
With all the confusion here, it's hard to breathe, but I'll breathe...


Chorus


All my life I've dealt with pain
So I don't need you to drive me insane
Even the best things have to fall
It makes you wonder why we love at all?


And I know that this isn't fair
But in all the craziness
I need you there
And I know you're impossible to top
You ask me if you're too little
You're more than enough for me...


Chorus


I'm gonna reach, reach, reach out to you
I wanna be one with you

xmas tree & graduation

Pictures gallore time..
and yes, Merry Christmas Everybody!
Spent the afternoon watching 'Singing Carols in the Candlelight" show.
The jolly spirit of xmas!


Anyways, here are some photos taken yesterday at the Huge Christmas Tree at Victoria Square. At night, went to take pics around the xmas tree with Mai's family.

The naughty elves on the xmas tree..


Is that present for me?


My favourite..the upside-down elf!


Snow Meen + the silly elves+ my enormous pressies! hehe..


Merry Deepavali...opss, I mean, Merry Xmas! Like my "cone" hat?


The Adelaide trademark fountain + Xmas tree..


Together with Mai's mom..


Gelagat 3 adik beradik..


Nicely lighted xmas tree..


Us + the xmas tree..


The cold summer night..


Shall I serve you with a Xmas tree?



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Here are the pictures from Mai's + Suci's graduation the other day..enjoy!


the very special guests..hehe..


The Bachelor graduate, Mai..


The Masters graduate, Suci..


Mai & Meen.. and our proud Uni..


Suci & Meen, and the lovely ribbons..


Triple Ms closeup..


Housemates closeup...


Congrats you two!


Me + the 2 graduates..


The four lovely ladies..


with Abu, who also graduated..


The page that has my picture, suci's name & mai's name..hehe..

alex band

One of my personal favourite band is 'The Calling'. Ever since I heard "Wherever you will go" on the radio back in 2001, I fell in love with the band, and supported their music. I also have both of their albums, Camino Palmero and Two . Currently, Alex Band (the singer) is gonna come up with his solo album sometime in June next year, and his first single is out in March. I checked out his website, and the songs are pretty awesome! Some of the songs are Tonight, Please, Hold on to you, Euphoria, Lost Boy, Love..and many more. Just love his deep voice! Even at YouTube, he puts up some videos of him in the studio doing some silly things and recording some songs. Ooh, can't wait for his album to come out!!

I was so into "him" this afternoon, that I even browsed around his official fan site, and I was so suprised to know that he is already married to actress Jennifer Sky for 2 years! (where have I been I wonder?). They looked gorgeous on their wedding day..by the beach some more..awww..

And he is only 25 this year, pretty young lad huh? I think he is my kinna guy.. can sing, can play guitar, loves cats and good looking as well..hehe..Too bad he's taken! *dang!* . Actually, I know somebody who kinna looks like him.. a malay version of Alex Band, not as talented though..but nahh, it ain't the same. =p

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Suci left Adelaide for good today. Now, I have to fly all the way to Brunei to meet up with her. But, there's always sms-es + chats to keep in touch. Hopefully her 'Big' day will be coming up soon, so I can meet her again. It has been great knowing you Suc! You shall be missed! =)

intimately becks

People always tell me that I should buy something 'memorable' with my first salary, something that is worth buying that I would remember always. I ignored that advice at first and paid my rent every week instead. But now, I've decided to take that advice seriously, and I went to buy my first self-bought perfume! * Yeayy!*

Unfortunately, I didn't manage to buy the value pack, where the perfume comes with a free body lotion + body shower. Sayangnye!! Thats one thing about Christmas Sale, better grab it fast, or it's gone baby! That time, I didn't have enough money (and guts!) to buy it. This perfume is really selling really well here, like hot buns! I took the 2nd last one from the shelf, imagine that! ( I even woke up early just to buy the perfume! tsk tsk). Oh well, it is all worth it..

So now, I have my two Victoria smells. Love Spell Garden Collection by Victoria Secret, and Intimately Beckham for Women eau de toilette by Victoria Beckham. *big grin*

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Today, this very day, both of my besties are flying off overseas.
Shades is leaving for Istanbul, will be back in KL on the 1st.
Zaf is leaving for Melbourne, will be back in KL on the 2nd.
And Zaf is coming to Adelaide to visit me on the 28th!*Double yeay!*
I better start planning the itinerary for her stay here.
Can't wait! =)

User & work

I read in CLEO today about " 10 Tell-tale signs you're a user". A 'User' in this article categories family, friends, and even neighbours according to their levels of "usefulness". Then ones that I agreed upon were:-


1) Friendship have a shelf life- The only reason Users make friends is because they are useful. For this reason, Users may find that their friendship never last long.


2) User loves the words "I need a favour"- After all, why would a self-centred User want to do favours for people?



3) The partner puts up with the User because he "loves" you.



I can't help it but to 100% agree to these SO SO true facts.
Miza would SO agree with me too, right Miza? *evil grin*
Siapa yang termakan cili, rasalah pedasnya..



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I worked 2 days in a row this week. Alhamdulillah.
This time, I was rotating in between the 3 different rooms- babies, toddlers + kindi rooms.



During yesterday's kindi session, I taught them the "Jumba this, jumba that" song, and they loved it so much.Boy I miss teaching!



As for today, I encountered several interesting children.



In the babies room, one child kept on crying (without tears) + screaming his lungs out the entire time. Apparently his mom has lost a baby recently, and she didn't cope very well, hence the crocodile tears from the child. Poor kid.But after lunch, I played with him, and he was all bubbly + happy. He just needed that little bit of extra attention.Hope he gets that at home too.



I played blocks with the other babies, pretending to make towers & trains and also blowed some bubbles, especially to the younger babies. Boy they loved it!



In the toddler's room, I was there after their nap time.



One of the boys woke up, and I help him with his shoes.
Suddenly, he hugged me, rubbed his face to my chest, and guess what.. he fell asleep on my chest! I guess he just needed that extra body warmth to sleep onto. So, I was sitted on the floor, couldn't move to do my other duties.



Then, another girl who was wide awake, started to cry and said "Mummy? Mummy?". Seeing her like that, I said "Aww, you miss Mummy huh? Let me give you a cuddle". So she quickly ran to me and hugged me.



And there they were. On my laps, the boy on my left thigh, the girl on my right thigh.
I admit, it was a very intimate moment, having 2 kids, both cuddling, and one sleeping on you. But they were both rather heavy! Thank God they were adorable..Finally, the girl stood up and the boy gradually woke up. I think all of us "cuddled" for a good 15-20 minutes! Ain't it sweet.. =)



I think, I kinna like this job. I mean, I don't really mind. So far, I have visited 5 different centres in the past 4 weeks. And mind you, this is not the peak season of the year. So there will be more centres to come next year Insyallah..



So, I'll stay. For now. =)

free hugs..

Sometimes, a hug is all we need.
I admit, sometimes I'm too shy to hug someone.
Thought I am not a "touchy" person.
But, the truth, when someone hugs you..
you'll feel better, you'll feel warmer,
you'll feel love.=)

FREE HUGS for all!

Enjoy this inspiring video + song..




All The Same by Sick Puppies


I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly


I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do


I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long are you're here


Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same


Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden


And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am


Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
I's all the same


In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same


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I got an offline msg from a friend on my yahoomsger.
She quoted from La Tahdzan (Don't be SAD book) , which says:-


ALLAH AKAN MENGGANTI YANG LEBIH BAIK
"Allah tidak pernah mencabut sesuatu dari anda kecuali Dia menggantinya dengan yang lebih baik.Tetapi,itu apabila anda bersabar dan tetapi redha dengan segala ketetapan-Nya."


"Sesiapa saja org didunia ini yang kekasihnya Aku cabut nyawanya,kemudian dengan cubaan yang Aku timpakan ini dia (bersabar dan) mengharap pahalaKu,nescaya akan Aku ganti dengan syurga" - Al Hadith.


This hadith opened my eyes to the reasons why obstacles happen in life.
As the saying goes, "the best is yet to come.." =)


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It's Mai's + Suci's graduation today.
Congrats to both of my dear friends!
Will update the pics soon..stay tune..

akhir cerita cinta..

This is a lovely song by Glen Fredly, 'Akhir Cerita Cinta'..
It's an old song, but somehow I never heard it before until today..
A mix of acoustic, r+b, not to mention the funky lil hat..me likey!
Enjoy peps..=)


Sandiwarakah selama ini...
Setelah sekian lama kita tlah bersama
Inikah akhir cerita cinta
Yang slalu aku banggakan
di depan mereka...
Entah dimana...
Ku sembunyikan rasa malu... ho...


Kini harus aku lewati
Sepi hariku tanpa dirimu lagi
Biarkan kini kuberdiri
Melawan waktu
Tuk melupakanmu
Walau pedih hati...
Namun aku bertahan...



In translation..

Was it just an act,
after long time we've been together?
Is this the end of our love story,
that I always proud of in front of them?
I don't know where to hide this shame


Now I have to go through my lonely day without you again
Let me stand against the time to forget you
Even heart aches, but I'll survive

cuppacakes!

I am obssessed with Cuppacakes!
They are fun, beautiful, adorable & tasteful designs that will surely attract attention & taste buds! (quoted from the site)
I am craving for one right now! *wishful thinking*

For shades' bday, I ordered 'Hugs + Kisses' cuppacakes, which was delivered straight to her house. Lucky thing she was at home, so the suprise was a success! *Yeay!*

As for now, I'm gonna order the 'Secret Garden' ones for Miza's engagement (she requested it anyways!)


Then, for her wedding later part of the year, am gonna get her the 'Wedding Roses' cuppacakes!

As for myself, I don't mind getting the 'Valentine' ones..*hint hint anybody?*

Woah, I am like a spokeperson for cuppacakes! haha..

Anyways, what are you waiting for? Place your orders & get some of that yummy treat yourself!

They're all pretty..and they look yummy..

Satisfaction guranteed! ;)

tired..

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep ...



I'm tired of breathing
Tired of feeling
Tired of looking at the past for meaning
Tired of running
Tired of searching
Tired of trying
But I'm not tired of you ..

pieces dont fit anymore

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
you've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
watching us fading and watching us fall apart


you pulled me under so i had to give in
such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
well i'll hide all the bruises; i'll hide all the damage that's done
but i show how i'm feeling until all the feeling has gone


oh, don't misunderstand how i feel
coz i've tried, yes i've tried
still i don't know why
no i don't know why


why i can't explain why it's not enough
coz i gave it all to you
and if you leave me now
oh just leave me now
it's the better thing to do


it's time to surrender
it's been too long pretending
there's no use in trying
when the pieces don't fit anymore

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Its really sad that everything has to end this way.
But when one crossed the limit, there is no point return.
I had enough, it's her lost.
Who needs her, when I have others who appreciates me for who I am..
This entire mess has caused me lots of heartache.
I thought I could never trust anybody anymore.
But, I was glad when a true friend said to me..

"..like i told u b4..no matter what i will always be there for u.."


Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on, my dear friend. =)

Syar's wed pics

Here are some of the photos of Syar's beach wedding party from my & mai's camera. There's lots more other pictures actually, but am still waiting for the other guests to email the pictures over. Oh well, these will do for now.

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Syar & Geoff's beach wedding party, 3rd December 2006 at Aldinga beach, South Australia.

















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Syar & Geoff were officially married on 30th November 2006 at the Al-Khalil Mosque, Woodville, Adelaide. Here are the nikah photos =)