surabaya!

After a week of hecticness-nak demam-planning for next year's timetable-catching up with old friends-down with flue-party day-curriculum meeting-busy week, tmrw am flying off to Surabaya! Yahhoooo~
A much deserved break, for sure.
Am all packed. Just need to get a good book to read at the airport.
Till then, have a good week ahead! (^_^)

lucky

"They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will..

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday.."

FTB outing

Today was our first outing as FTBs.. (fiance-to-be)

Had lunch at Chicken rice shop, then headed towards the Ground floor where there was a Chocolate Cake Charity Competition being held.

Then, he saw his own celebrity twin.. Mr Fahrin himself!

I pleaded & begged him to follow me & take pic with his twin, but he refused!!

Sabar ajelah.. (-_-) next time then..

Today was quite a fun day with my FTB.

He is more expressive, more jovial..

We shared a lot of things today.. our feelings, our thoughts..

He seemed to say "daymnn" a lot tadi.. chomel betul..

Now, need to decide...091009 or 010110?

Hmm....

Pre-Booked!

Folks, I am officially pre-booked!

Alhamdulillah.. everything went really well..
I was so anxious & nervous about the whole thing.
In the morning, after a tak-lena-sgt tido, I was sorta in a bad mood.
Not bad mood la.. My anxiety was taking over me, and I was in a 'daze' mood.

Now I know how Suci felt during her nikah.
It's not that we're not happy or excited.. but, the fear of anything that can spoilt the event.
I was so scared, that I even thought that they were not coming! (They came about 45 mins late)


So, I was minding my own business..did my laundry, helped in the kitchen.
Then, Mama came to me & said..

"Since we have the time now,why don't you go up & sembahyang Dhuha, sembahyang hajat.. Doakan everything will go well".

So I did.. I prayed..and I actually cried..
At that point, you just have to tawakal to Allah.. it is in His hands..

When they arrived, I had to be 'quarantined' upstairs.
Even an exciting CSI episode didn't get to hush my anxiety away.
I couldn't sit still. I went inside my room, then out. I was sitting down, then stood up, walked around.

Then suddenly..
"Meen, meh turun bawah.."

I stepped down, and I saw everyone was smiling.
I sat next to his mom, and she took my hand..
"Bismillah..." she said, and she wore the golden ring on my left finger.
and with that.. I am officially pre-booked!
Wow.. after all that hi-wire feelings.. it all ended smoothly.. Alhamdulillah..


So then, we ate, mingle around, took pics..
Before you know it, they had to leave to the airport.
After saying our goodbyes, I had my solo photoshoot taken by my bros.
Emer actually took a total of 900 shots of this event.. imagine that!
And of course I didn't wait. I went thru ALL the pics.. looking at which shot looks nice & all.
Btw, you can view my merisik pictures here.

Then suddenly..I fell asleep!
I think, all the hecticness ran off... suddenly my body needed the rest.

I had a deep sleep.

After my nap, the family quickly dressed up to go watch Magdagascar2.
Mr Bert met up with us at the cinema.
He was looking so tired, after all that driving..cian dia..
It was our actual first cinema date.. with the family! hehe..
The movie was hillarious.. so funny la those silly animals..

After our movie session, we headed off to Chilies for supper.
Mr Bert had to leave early.. he needed the rest..

Overall, the day was a happy & good day for me.
Alhamdulillah.. Mr Bert now is officially my FTB! (Fiance- to-be) hehe..

One down, two more to go..
16 weeks & counting...

merisik tmrw..

Today was Creative day in my school..
and also Kamil & Nadirah's nikah..
Welcome to the family Nadirah.. congrats to the both of you!

Creative Day turn out to be better than expected.
The children & parents enjoyed their morning.. despite the shortage of UHU Glue & the popular Buncho colours (Pink & Red).

Anyways, after my hectic morning, I did some errands for the special day tmrw.
Took my cuppacakes. Nice Irises!
I gave myself a medicure & pedicure treat. My nails & toes are looking shining & pretty good looking!
I cleaned the guest room & the hall, helped Ma in the kitchen, laid the table, cutting & chopping things up, wrapped the hantarans.

Hmm.. everything seems alright.. except:-
1) I got a zit on my left cheek. Of ALL the days! Pergh~
2) I still dunno what to wear. Might go with pink baju kurung.

I am having a mix of nervousness yet excited bout tmrw.
First steps in less than 12 hours..
My last day as a gf.. hehe..
Wish me luck yah.. hope everything will go well.

dugaan merisik..

It's funny how many things can influence one's feelings.
Initially.. I was excited, not over-the-top, but I was looking forward to the day.
I guess because it is expected, so yeah, I was ready.

But, the unexpected happend.
I was caught in the middle.
I was caught in-between two different mind sets.
I was in a dilemma.

After confiding to Shades, I called up Mr Bert.
My intention was not to tell him. I just wanted to hear his voice, to make me feel calm.
He knows me better. He could sense there was something wrong. And boy I cried.
He assured me he will discuss things again.

The very next day, everything was set. But somehow,my emotions were hi-wire.
At times, I feel happy, especially when I was trying the ring sizes, buying the songket & kain, looking at the wonderfully wrapped boxes.
But at other times, when it triggers, I can cry the entire River Nile.
I feel some-what guilty, terribly scared & terified, hoping that this is not a bad start..

Mr Bert has been wonderful at times like this.
He assured me that things will be okay.. He reminded me to pray that everything will run smoothly.
I feel so relief when he said statements like,
" Baba nak sangat meen jadi menantu"
" I dah sayang you, my parents dah sayang you too.. so, we proceed kay.."
:) Thanx dia.. you mean the world to me..
Btw, he has been in good mood lately..
Love it when he's like this!

So now, I have a different mind set.
Am looking things at a different light.
This is just an obstacle for happiness..
(nih baru merisik..how bout tunang..yet alone nikah!! Ya Allah, let me be strong..)
Insyallah, everything will turn out well..

The first step.. one day to go..

16th Nov

Wow! It has been a month..

My school concert was finally over last saturday.. Alhamdulillah, everything went quite well. Much more organized this year. My 'Gingerbread Fred' turns out to be a comic act, 'Bear Hunt' was a cute sight, and everyone enjoyed 'Peterpan', especially when the pirates starts to dance! hehe.. Well done my children! *clap clap*

Latest update?
Looking forward for 16th November.. *winks*