selfish

It happen the night of my flyfm debut.
I got an email from one of my teachers, stating that she'll be resigning from my school. Her last day was today.
I was terribly in shocked.
I called her immediately, pleaded her to re-think her decision. But her decision was final.
"I've already considered the consequences. I know, I am being selfish here, but it is for my career. I hope you understand".
That's the word. Selfish. It was very hard for me to accept it.
I couldn't sleep well that night. All I could think of is the poor children. And the unsatisfied parents. The concert day. The report card day. The final 3 months of school. So many things were in my mind.

The next day, Boss came & spoke to her, she was affirmed with her decision.
Her penalty: 2 month salary to be transferred to the management's account.
The entire day, I somewhat avoided her. I couldn't face her. We only spoke when needed.

The day after, she happily gave everyone a present. She gave me a pink pursue. It was thoughtful of her.
She even stayed on for her final staff meeting right until the end.

Today was her last day in school.
Another teacher took the effort to buy her a handbag, and a farewell card.
I didn't even give her a hug. I just waved her goodbye, and I quickly went for my HOS meeting.
I know.. I was being very cold towards her.

It was quite emotional writing a farewell msg for her in the card.
I didn't know what to write.. I was speechless.

If I could, I wanted to beg her to stay.
She is such a good teacher. Very efficient. Very organized.
I was quite close to her, one of the teachers that I could rely on.
But..she chose to move on unexpectedly.
It would have been different if she were to leave end of the term. But she chose now, right smack in the middle of the term.
It was hard for me to let go.
That's why I acted the way I did. I had to be professional.
If I were to be a friend, I would have cried and hugged her tight.

Selfish? Yes, we both were.

" I wish you all the best in the new school.
Am sorry for the way I acted. I wish you could stay.
Thank you so much for everything that you've contributed for the school.
You will definitely be missed..."