A letter for Munckin

A letter for my little baby who is still in my tummy..

Dear Munckin,

How are you my dear baby? I figured that you are asleep, as you have not been as active as you were earlier this morning during my first's Braxton Hicks.I thought you were coming out today! Anyways, Mummy is enjoying my last day of annual leave at home, while Daddy has gone off to work. It was raining this morning, a good weather to sleep in, and we both enjoyed that, didn't we?

As you know Munckin dear, all of us, including Tuk Mak, Atuk, Tuk Ma & Tuk Ba are very worried about you. It has been a week and a half since mummy had leakage. Although with the doctor's medication, it has subside, but it has not completely stopped. If I tend to do more vigorous activity, I will leak more, if not, I will leak bit by bit within the span for 4 hours which is an improvemnt from before (every hour leakage).

Mummy has rescheduled the appointment with Dr Z to Monday afternoon. His last words are still toying in my mind "If the leakage does not stop, we might have to deliver the baby". At this point, I am not sure how much leakage "damage" has occurred, but I hope the air ketumban it is still sufficient for you until you are 36 weeks.

Ideally, I would like you to be born not as a pre-term baby. And, I would like you to reach the weight of 3.4kg, just like Mummy & Daddy when we were born. Last week, you weigh 2.3kg at 33 weeks. Imagine if you need to be delivered by next week, you will just be a tiny little baby, less than 3kg. Also, I would so much want you to be delivered normally.. no induce, no operation, just pure labour pain. But, that is something I have no control of.

But of course, Mummy can't be selfish. Your health & safety comes first before anything else. If you are required to be delivered earlier upon doctor's advice, then Mummy will accept the reality and proceed with recommended procedure.

Munckin, you are still quite active in Mummy's tummy. Please be strong, please be healthy. If you are ready to be out in this real world earlier than your expected time, don't worry, Mummy is here eagerly waiting for you. This week, Mummy & Tuk Mak has been busy buying all the remaining essential things for you. Your room ready, with all your clothes & cloth dipaers has been washed, hospital bags are all packed & ready to go.. now we are just waiting for your grand arrival to this world. :)

Lately, Mummy has been walking like a penguin, feeling aches & pains at the back and at the "bottom"areas, feeling hot & sweaty, getting heavier by the minute. Every time Mummy has to climb the stairs, I have to sing "The Climb" by Miley Cyrus, because literally, it is a climb for me! I was advice to "rest" more instead being my active self. The past 8 months, mummy has been blessed with an easy pregnancy, but this last few weeks, Mummy has become slightly fragile, but it's okay sayang, it is all for you.

Mummy has been crying a lot lately thinking of you. Thinking whether are you still okay inside my tummy, thinking about the labour pain that I will encounter, thinking whether I will be a good mom to you.. it is really a life changing experience for me, and I hope you'll be a good baby and be patient with the change that mummy has to go through, okay? Daddy has been very supportive, always asking about you & mummy despite his hecticness at work. We are truly blessed to have him around Munckin. He is doing is level best to provide for us.

*Mummy wiping away the tears away. Ter-emo sekejap*

Okay Munckin, you take care in there kay. Hang in there, in less than 6 weeks you'll be in my arms. I've always enjoyed every moment of your movements in my tummy.. the kicking, the nudging, the somersaults.. Daddy & I can't wait to see you in person baby.. Mummy tak putus-putus doakan for your safe delivery and arrival in the pink of health nanti Insyallah. Whenever you're ready Munckin, pre-term or later, Mummy is here waiting for you. And not forgetting, I love you Munckin..."I knew I love you before I met you.." :)

Hugs & Kisses,
Mummy...