Bad Day..

Sigh.. I had a bad day..kinna.. It is mostly have to do with my prac... The kids are fantastic, no doubt.. is just the staff, especially my mentor and the "self-claimed" director.. sighh.. imagine, I'm not even working yet, and they are giving me lots of crap! Every single time I leave that centre, I don't feel the slightest joy at all.. I feel so mad, frustrated, sad.. I even cried in the centre last week, but I tried to hide it as much as possible. When I see one of my kid cries, I feel like joining her/ him as well.. Sometimes I feel like I am being treated like one of the 2-year old kids.. hmm, okie fine, maybe I have done several mistakes.. It is my first prac afterall.. But, they could have just be a "little" more kind to me.. I feel like they have something against me.. Sometimes I wonder, is it really me, or is it really them? This has been going on for a month plus already, and I still have my 2 weeks block prac at the end of june.. I wish I can just go back to KL right this minute.. I have exactly 4 more weeks till my next flight.. guess I have to be extra patient & just try to "work things out" with them as much as I can.. Sigh..

On the same note, my mom has finally has a MSN account, so that it will be much easier to communicate to her rather than sms.ac-ing with her every time. She was too telling me about the obstacles of life that she is going through, and how she wish that I was with her right now.. Boy I was SO touched! I felt the exact same way! I guess we are undergoing almost the same challenges, and we both needed each other! Oh ma, I feel you.. Can't wait to go home!!

Currently, I have 2 new favourite songs.. one is from Daniel Powter "Bad Day", and the other is from Simple Plan "Untitled".. Both songs describes exactly what I feel about this whole prac thing.. I'm just gonna put the chorus bit into this blog for your "pleasure" viewing..

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Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday (yeap..I wanna go home...)
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

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How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me